General Conference Journal

When I take notes at conference, I do not always write down exactly what the speaker is saying. I note the personalized direction the spirit is giving me.

Elder Robert D Hales

It is conference time once again! If you are like me, you find levels of meaning not considered before through the blessing of both “hearing” and “seeing” the messages in addition to “feeling” the “personalized direction” from the spirit. Over the years I have tried several different conference journals and I am still searching for one that fits. I like to have more room to record messages in the music as well as the talks. I also like to have a space to write down impressions I receive when watching the messages in ASL because sometimes that is the space where inspiration comes. My brain likes to have the English and ASL spaces separate; I don’t know why, I just know my brain works that way.

For those of you who know me, you know I am NOT a computer/technology person in even the smallest way. Much of it is quite overwhelming for me. For those of you who don’t know me, now you know this about me 🙂 I have attempted to create a journal with more space for inspiration during music, more space to record messages received in English and ASL, a space to mark that makes it easier for me to know which messages I want to go back and dive deeper into. I suspect this journal with grow and change.

I am offering it here for you to use if you’d like. You can print as many pages as you need for the music and speakers. There are no coloring or games pages because, as you know, you can’t look at a game or color a page AND watch ASL at the same time. I may revisit this for next conference and add something.

ASL Hymnal

This book began as a labor of love: love of music, love of ASL and the Deaf community, and love for the Lord. This is a work in progress and is constantly evolving; I am currently in the process or revising a few hymns and adding more. In addition, I have a primary hymnal in progress. What works for the congregation I serve in will not work in every congregation. This book is not intended to teach ASL signs or grammar. It is assumed that anyone using this as a resource understands the different types of sentence structure with the accompanying NMM’s and can apply that knowledge to the gloss provided.

This is intended to be a resource book; a starting place for anyone interpreting congregational hymns. Please use this as it fits your consumers; change what you need in keeping with the hymn context and meaning to best serve those in your congregation. These are NOT intended to be used for choir or any other performance as that requires a different approach.

Through the process, my testimony has grown beyond measure. I truly began to understand why the Lord says a song of the righteous is a prayer. Growing up in the church, I sang these hymns at church, at home, in the car, or wherever I was. Even so, it wasn’t until I began to research and pray about them that my love for the hymns grew. As I have studied the lyrics along with the scriptures and the history of each hymn, I am in awe of the wealth of testimony and teaching we hold in our hands with the wondrous gift of music.

I have not done this alone. I have sought guidance from the Deaf members of my ward for ASL accuracy. I have sought guidance from my leaders and many others in understanding the doctrines expressed in the lyrics. And I have prayed a lot.

ASL Hymnal and Reference Book

“Greater Than Us All”

The first time I saw the production Greater Than Us All by Kenneth Cope, was about 26 years ago. I have vivid memories, both visual and emotional, from that production. It had a strong, positive impact on my life so I did what most people would do in order to be able to relive that experience as much as possible: I bought the CD (and I bought the sheet music so I could play everything myself). I wanted to be able to get inside the music, let it wrap around me and suspend me in warmth and light. Have you ever experienced that? There are a few pieces of music that I feel this way about and Kenneth Cope’s celebration of our Savior is one of them.

GreaterThanUsAll

This year, one of the stake’s in the area decided to present this Easter Cantata as a service to the community, for the hearing and the Deaf. I had mixed emotions and thoughts about this. I have interpreted plays and musicals professionally both for profit and pro bono so I was comfortable with the concept. However, as I thought about the impact this performance had on me many years ago, I was concerned about how to make this as impactful as possible for the Deaf members of the community.

The cantata opens with heavenly sounds of Alleluia. Although it is only one word repeated, the meaning is enhanced by the beautiful instrumental arrangement.  I thought to myself: “There is no way I can do this song justice in ASL. How do I paint the pictures that fill my heart and soul when I hear this??” I was so grateful when I found out the director had chosen to pair this piece with visuals of the Savior and His life. So what do you do in this situation? I made the decision, in this particular case, to briefly explain the song to the Deaf in attendance and they just watched the videos/visuals projected onto the screen. After all, ASL is a visual language so let the visuals carry the message. In the past, I’ve interpreted Handel’s Messiah without the benefit of videos/visuals, so interpretation was the only option available to me which was a bit challenging.

Most of us are familiar with the song His Hands, which is a part of Kenneth Cope’s cantata. Truly a beautiful song. But do you know the other songs? Greater Than Us All, More Than Just a Boy, Face to Face, and all the rest? Do you know the stories presented in the music? And the faith expressed? Can you imagine the excitement and anxiety Joseph and Mary felt?

Anytime music is interpreted, it is important to know what the artist had in mind when writing it. Usually this information can be found online. When I interpret the hymns, I always start with the history and the scriptures associated with each hymn. I didn’t have that when preparing for Greater Than Us All. However, I am waiting to hear back from Brother Cope and if you are curious to know what he says, I would be happy to share it with you. Because I didn’t have the history of the songs at my disposal, I did my best to study the lyrics and visualize the message.

Working on the song titled the same as the cantata, I found there was a place to role shift and become Heavenly Father (if everything was set up well). In this context, I have not experienced that role shift. I was very excited and practiced it. Role shifting give us, as interpreters, an opportunity to “become” someone else. Have you ever imagined yourself “becoming” Heavenly Father? Can you see Him calling His children to the grand council in heaven to discuss the Plan of Salvation and the role our Savior would play? Can you feel the magnitude of what that means? Honestly, I felt a bit overcome emotionally visualizing what this would look like (obviously from my limited mortal experience. I’m sure the actuality of this amazing event is beyond beautiful in description).

Even though the performance was short, about an hour, there is a lot to consider when interpreting something like this. I am grateful for the opportunity to interpret the Greater Than Us All Easter cantata. I had a fabulous team and we had an amazing experience. Interpreting scripture and music celebrating the Savior is always a humbling and testimony building experience.

Moses 1:39

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Driving home from church in January, chatting with my friend sitting next to me in the car, she shared a tidbit from Gospel Doctrine class. My head was spinning! All of a sudden, everything I thought I understood about Moses 1:39 completely changed. My jaw dropped, I immediately turned my head to make eye contact with my friend as if somehow this would stop the whirlwind and cement this new knowledge in my mind if only I could see it in her eyes. Quickly turning my attention back to the road (going 75 mph, one shouldn’t take ones eyes off the road), my heart sank and I shouted: “How do I interpret that!?”

Pondering this new information for three months, I approached the Gospel Doctrine teacher today to get more clarification. As interpreters, it is our responsibility to make sure the message is clearly communicated. So often we hear words and swiftly throw out a sign thinking that what we chose is accurate. It is vital that we monitor our internal process. Drop the form! (if you don’t know what that means, I promise you will as I add the interpreting curriculum on this site over time.)

So, let’s turn our attention to Moses 1:39. “For behold, this is my work and my glory– to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man.” How often, when we hear the word “eternal” do we automatically use the sign FOREVER or CONTINUE, and sometimes EXALT? Are we being true to this scriptural message when we use these signs? I posit we are not.

Immortality and eternal life are not the same concept. Immortality is defined as: “the ability to live forever” which would accurately be interpreted as FOREVER LIFE, or something similar. So then what does eternal life mean? Eternal is one of the names of God; therefore, “eternal life” is God’s life. This is where my head started spinning. I can’t interpret that as EQUAL GOD or GOD HIS LIFE or EXALT LIFE for none of these are conceptually accurate.

I also don’t have the time to use the expansion feature of ASL on what God’s life means. If we read Moses 1: 33-35, we learn what God’s life is. There is not usually enough time to sign the totality of this concept when someone is talking in sacrament meeting at the speed of the Energizer Bunny and all you want to do is make sure you get that scripture out there for the Deaf members of the congregation. So how can you, as the interpreter, accurately sign this concept? After much pondering for personal growth and understanding on this concept (for our perspective is one of many filters which the message must go through), reaching out to the Gospel Doctrine teacher, and speaking with others in the Deaf program in my ward, this is what we came up with: EXALT BECOME SAME-AS GOD CONTINUE. One could argue that you could add the sign for “action” which would look like this: EXALT BECOME SAME-AS GOD ACTION CONTINUE

“Kindness Begins With Me”

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As I have pondered upon the content of this post over the past week, conflicting thoughts and emotions have surged within. This post is not to explain or bring to your awareness linguistics, or sign choices, or culture. Instead, I wish to impress upon you the importance of kindness. We have all heard the adage: “Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me.” As children, this is repeated over and over by peers, parents, teachers, and others we come in contact with; some of these people have what they believe to be our “best interest” at heart, others do it to pour salt over an open wound. Whatever the reason, your words (and actions), my words (and actions), can AND do hurt our brothers and sisters.

Professionally, I was taught to separate myself from “the work”. We practiced in class how to critically analyze ourselves and others ONLY in the sense of the work we produced. Was I able to accurately convey the message? What did I notice in the work of another that I can learn from: something not to do or something that worked well that I might want to try myself? This is how we grew. We did not belittle. We did not gossip about another person’s work or their character. We supported one another as best we could. Our teachers told us they viewed us as equals, as co-workers, because upon graduation, there was a good chance we would be working side by side one day. Being an American Sign Language Interpreter is a choice I made for a career.

Often, at church, those who are interpreting are called to serve with little to no knowledge of ASL, Deaf culture, Deaf history, interpreting models, etc. Your brothers and sisters have families, work, challenges, and they have willingly accepted a call from the Lord to learn ASL and to learn how to interpret. This is no small task. It is not a career choice. It is not something they typically have 30+ hours a week to devote to study as do those who are enrolled in an ITP/IPP. And they may be trying to figure this out on their own without the benefit of professional training.

Is the gospel message important? Absolutely! In all of the work I have done over the years, I personally feel it is one of the most vital messages to clearly and accurately interpret for this message carries with it the power to heal souls and help people find the path leading back home. What more important message is there than to know of the love your Savior and Father in Heaven have for you?
“God does not call the qualified. He qualifies the called.” How does any of what I’ve said relate to kindness?

One of my callings is the Interpreter Teacher. I see the intimate challenges of those who are called to serve in the ward as ASL Interpreters as well as ASL service missionaries. When professional interpreters visit and make comments about the skill level of those who have been called and are putting their best effort into learning a language, culture, and interpreting process, I feel ashamed of the profession I have chosen. I feel anger. I feel a desire to protect my brothers and sisters who have been called to serve. I feel hurt.

Last week, we had such a visitor. Her words have hurt my friend and fellow interpreter. My friend was considering going back to school to get her degree in ASL Interpreting…until last Sunday. She has chosen not to pursue this degree now. She doesn’t want to be a part of a career where we tear each other down instead of build each other up. She has been pursuing this dream for a year; it is now lost. This past week I have been quite distressed due to the words and ramifications of what transpired at church. The actions of this other interpreter hurt me, and my friend.

I have another interpreter friend who, before we met, was told by a professional interpreter visiting the ward: “You shouldn’t be interpreting.” This woman, who later became my friend, was crushed. And when she and I met and she found out I was a professional interpreter, she was hesitant to fulfill her calling for fear that I would criticize her as well.

For those who serve in callings as interpreters, is the message produced always clear? No. And that is difficult for me to see. But, I made a decision years ago when I heard a new interpreter make a comment about her teacher/mentor; I can’t remember it exactly so I will paraphrase the concept:

I am grateful for my mentor. There were many times I knew she could put the message out clearly while I would struggle, but she allowed me the opportunity to learn and grow and I am a better interpreter today because of it.

I want to be that person. I have chosen to be that teacher/mentor who supports, encourages, shows by example when it’s my turn, answers questions when asked so as to provide a means for maximum growth. With the Lord at my side, this approach has led to miracles.

In contrast to last week’s negative and unsettling emotions, I found myself a visitor in a ward today. Also visiting was a young lady and her parents. As I sat in sacrament meeting, my eye caught the movement of hands. I glanced over and saw this mother doing her best to inconspicuously interpret for her daughter. For ten minutes I wondered if it would be alright to intrude and ask if they would like me to interpret. In the end, I decided to offer my services and they gratefully accepted. Another professional interpreter came in late. I interpreted for 20 minutes, as is standard in the industry, and then she walked up the aisle. I gave up my seat and she took my place and interpreted the last 20 minutes of the meeting. Without a need to argue or fight or criticize, she and I simply worked together to provide the best service we could. I left church today elated; opposite of how I left my home ward last week. I knew my Father in Heaven was watching today. I knew He knew what was needed for this young lady. And I knew He knew what I needed.

Please, let us be kind. I know it is not always easy. The Lord loves you. He will help you fulfill your calling without using words to hurt one another. Please trust Him and lean on Him. The natural man is strong; I feel I fight this often and I know it is arduous and exhausting. I also know the Lord has put people in my life to help me conquer what I cannot conquer alone sometimes. Don’t give in to the natural man’s desire to seek power over others by putting someone else down. Be kind.